Where My Problem Began & Wake Up Call

Today we were talking about eating disorders in Health Class. I am sure you have heard of binge eating (I am referring to type when you overeat AND don't throw it all back up). When we we were talking about it I thought back to about 5 or 6 years when I went from a chubby to an obese child. I was a bit depressed when a was 6 and 7 because I was bullied back then. Dinner time was my favorite time of the day, that's when I could cope. I'd always be first to make my plate, and I gobbled it up fast. Then, once my parents went outside I'd quickly dash to the kitchen oven and grab up an extra handful of pasta, potatoes, and some other complex carb and swallow it all in one bite. I'd repeat my mouth stuffing handfuls until my brother or parents came. I remember after my episodes feeling so angry with myself. Eventually after this became a habit, my parents and older brother were concerned. However there was no stopping me. Once I was alone and in an episode of cravings, my table manners definitely weren't pretty. By 3rd grade my the bullying stopped and I didn't binge anymore. However after the binging became a habit, I still overate. Thinking about those memories was a wake up call. I have probably had an eating disorder. Soon after my binging stopped, I went through puberty. That's right, I went through puberty in fourth grade. I was blessed with blackheads and pimple breakouts. Of course rude classmates would ask me daily, "Do you wash your face?" Out of sympathy my parents let me spend some of my allowance on facial cleansers. I would spend hours reading up skin care tips. Soon after facial cleansers weren't the only cosmetics I pleaded to have.



As I was said before I was in Health class watching a slide show on binge eating, and after that my Health teacher had us write two paragraphs on we liked about ourselves. Obviously, I didn't raise my hand because I could only name a couple things. A girl about my size did raise her hand, and she could name lots of modest compliments about herself, at least twice the amount of likes I had written.



Just thought I would write about today, it's been a bit of a wake up call. Did I mention I am sick of being fat? I think I deserve to be happier for once. Talk to you soon.

I am back!

Hello everyone! It's been so long since I have posted anything. I figured I might be a little more inspired if I showed you some pictures of me over the years. Brace yourself. I really hate these pictures. However, I know posting them may give me some motivation. Comment if you'd like to.

Not even my cute dogs can hide the attention from my large legs. In that picture I was nine (same goes for the one of me in the angel costume.) Suprisingly, I had lost about 20 pounds in that picture.

More:

Eat This, Not That Thanksgiving Dinner

I was flipping through my copy of Eat This Not That today when I saw the Thanksgiving Dinner guide. I know some of you all may be struggling on what to have this season, so I have a link to the Thanksgiving Dinner from Eat This Not That! I hope that helps. In the book it has ways to burn the calories also. Such ideas include a 4.5 mile walk with the family(or a workout substitute of mine: Leslie Sansone's Fast & Firm 4 Really BIG Miles Workout DVD at most Walmart fitness sections), football, leaf racking, dish washing, etc.

Have a happy Thanksgiving everyone!

My New Petition!!

Last night I made a petition about beauty pressure! To see what it is about & to sign it click here.
You can sign this with a Facebook or Care2 login. Please share the news. I'm hoping for more than just a 1,000 signatures, that was an error. Please share the information! I honestly can't believe it's already got 27 signatures! :D

P.S. I'll be telling you about my progress very soon, I have a lot to cover.

Halloween Plus Size Costumes!

Many of you may be going to costume parties, have to dress up for work, etc. and need a Halloween costume. Though, for plus size people, you'll be lucky to find a costume that fits in the store, at least that's what happened to me when I use to dress up for Halloween. One of my favorite plus size online stores offers a lot of costumes, all creative. Some aren't appropriate though, and they are a little pricey. To see a plus size Halloween costumes from Woman Within, click here. Enjoy!

An Eye Opening Website to Check Out!

Have you been feeling a little funny since the last personal care product, cosmetic, etc. that you bought? You may be surprised to find it's the toxic ingredients. Some are easy to point out, others are more harmful then you think, and some are shockers. Part of being healthy obviously is putting healthy things into your body, not just food. It's good to use mostly safe ones How can you figure out what is safe? A large variety of products can be found at the Cosmetic Database.
It contains most of the well known brands ratings and some less known brands as well. There's a vast amount of products they have ratings for, so check it out! The ratings are of how safe a personal care products, etc. is. It ranges from 0-2 (safe) to 3-6 (partially toxic) to 7-10 (extremely toxic).

Getting Into The Fall Spirit and Fitness!

I know I may sound weird to summer lovers but I am excited for fall! Why? It is only because in my state the leaves change bright & beautiful colors.

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I have been slacking lately, it's like I have lost all possible motivation. What a plight that is!

One of my problems is eating as much as I want! I am finally going to count calories again with this Daily Food Diary PDF from Fitness Magazine. You can keep it private or share it with friends and family. Bottom line, be accurate and be honest. I have used this before and I know it helps.

Click Here.

Right know I am trying to figure out my new exercise regimen. I finally want to try something that works for more than just a little while.

Lastly, my birthday is this Tuesday on the 21rst. I will officially be 12! Yes, I am hoping to get some gifts that will help my weight loss. It is a suprise, I will tell you later! Hint: The acronym of my gift is S.B.D.